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JazzyBrony
Jazz/Jazzy/Gay Lord
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guess who had another close friend die.
car accident in the rain they swerved into oncoming traffic and were killed almost instantly

this makes 4 people in 2016

i dont even know what to say anymore
all of my friends are dying. my family is falling apart.

3 of the  5 people i called friends and grew up with are dead.
the two left are my fiance the other doesn't speak anymore. she is so traumatized she's mute. me danny and her and learning sign language now.
i guess im asking for your patience and understanding. if you dont wanna give it i dont really care anymore. i dont really care about much right now.

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Paint Attempt by JazzyBrony
Paint Attempt
I spent 17 half awake barely cognisant hours just losing myself in this. 17 hours because i kept redoing everything because it wasnt what i wanted and then redoing it again until it looked right
im okay with the results
i lost motivation to paint bloom so i included the sketch to show he was originally planned
it was nice. painting was nice
listened to this song" on repeat the entire time because it is basically the feel of the entire FOE:C story
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guess who had another close friend die.
car accident in the rain they swerved into oncoming traffic and were killed almost instantly

this makes 4 people in 2016

i dont even know what to say anymore
all of my friends are dying. my family is falling apart.

3 of the  5 people i called friends and grew up with are dead.
the two left are my fiance the other doesn't speak anymore. she is so traumatized she's mute. me danny and her and learning sign language now.
i guess im asking for your patience and understanding. if you dont wanna give it i dont really care anymore. i dont really care about much right now.
Old Focus by JazzyBrony
Old Focus
In the process of clearing out some old folders and organizing my life in an attempt to get rolling again I found this rolling around and thought I'd share it.
focus's design as an old(ish) man.

I go back to work now
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Don't repost my art anywhere
ANYWHERE
not tumblr
not twitter
not instagram
not derpiwhatever
nothing
If you want to repost it, ASK ME FIRST

this shouldn't need to be said
and i found out the hard way that apparently it does

but jazzy, I sourced it and credited you! 
doesn't matter. ask first. always. ask.
Hello
It's been
awhile..

and for that I apologize with all my heart! None of what follows will excuse me just dropping off the face of the earth for awhile but I hope it brings clarity to my actions.

This past year 3 people very close to me died. 2 of them very suddenly. I dropped contact with my family, my friends, and isolated myself despite knowing that is the exact opposite of what I should have done. I haven't drawn since.
I don't know if or when I will start drawing again but I will try very hard because drawing was one of the few things that brought me joy. It started to feel like a chore towards the end, something I had to drag myself to do kicking and screaming. I don't want to draw things for you guys that are forced and hated. I want to draw like I'm 16 again and I just discovered drawing tablets.
I'm not very good with words and I probably didn't explain this all that well but I ask for your patience and forgiveness. I'm a disaster on wheels one moment away from a nuclear meltdown.

I will be sorting through my unwieldy pile of notes and shit today, wish me luck.

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banifi Featured By Owner Sep 15, 2016  Student Artist
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TechTalkPony Featured By Owner Sep 15, 2016
Happy Birthday! ᵔ.ᵔ

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Airhogsborne Featured By Owner Sep 15, 2016  Hobbyist Artist
Happy Birthday!
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Khimi-chan Featured By Owner Sep 15, 2016
Hoping you have the jazziest birthday yet! <333 🌟🍎🌟
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TGerror Featured By Owner Sep 15, 2016
happy birthday to you ^_^
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schorpioen007 Featured By Owner Sep 15, 2016
Happy Birthday ^^
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TwilightIsMagic Featured By Owner Sep 15, 2016  Student General Artist
:iconpinkiehappyplz::iconsaysplz:Yay! We're here, everypony!
:iconhappytsplz::iconsaysplz:Phew, that wasn't long. I told you we could easily make it on hoof!
:iconstyle1plz::iconsaysplz:Speak for yourself, Twi, you didn't have to carry this cake! It's heavy, you know!
:iconpinkiebrilliantplz::iconsaysplz:Thank you for helping out, Dashie! I couldn't have settled for anything less, after all!
:iconfluttershy-plz::iconsaysplz:Hi... We're here to... wish you a happy birthday.
:iconpinkiepieplz::iconsaysplz:You said it! Happy birthday!
:iconbrilliantpinkieplz::iconsaysplz:And what better way to say "happy birthday" than with a cake? :iconcakepinkplz:
:iconapple-jackplz::iconsaysplz:Why, with a real Apple family apple pie, of course! :iconapplepieplz:
:iconderpyhappyplz::iconsaysplz:With a muffin! Yay! :iconmlpmuffinplz:
:iconraritysmileplz::iconsaysplz:But these, while pleasant to give, mean little by themselves...
:iconrarityiscuteplz::iconsaysplz:What makes them meaningful are our wishes for you!
:iconpinkiesmile2plz::iconsaysplz:Exactly! And we wish for you to have a perfect birthday and a great year ahead of you!
:iconrainbowdashhappyplz::iconsaysplz:Don't fear any challenges you might face! No matter how bad it may seem, have faith in yourself and keep on being awesome!
:icontwilighthappyplz::iconsaysplz:And while at it, keep a level head and don't lose sight of what's important! Keep the magic of friendship alive in yourself!
:iconapplejackhappyplz::iconsaysplz:Remember your loved ones and friends, an' don't let little things an' worries get you down!
:iconspikethinkingplz::iconsaysplz:We hope that you'll find all you seek and be the best you can be!
:iconrarityjoyplz::iconsaysplz:Don't forget to respect yourself! You're the best at being you, so stay true to what you really are!
:iconflutterpweezeplz::iconsaysplz:And we hope that you'll be at peace with yourself, too... and that the year ahead will be peaceful for you.
:iconpinkiewinkplz::iconsaysplz:And throughout all that, have fun! It isn't fun if you don't have any, after all, and fun it should be!
:iconpinkiepartyplz::iconsaysplz:Just like today! Party on!
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HunterBrony101 Featured By Owner Sep 15, 2016  Hobbyist Filmographer
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Cloudzapper8 Featured By Owner Sep 15, 2016
happy birthday and have a amazing good day ^w^ <3 <3 Super Fantastic Golden Platter Cake 3D Super Fantastic Golden Platter Cake 3D birthday cake 
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AlphaAquilae Featured By Owner Sep 15, 2016  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Happy birthday dude!!!
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